thanks dear coz sudi kawan dengan aku...banyak yang aku belajar dari kau..aku belajar erti persahabatan, kehidupan, sosial, banyak lagi lah... dengan kau aku tak perlu jadi orang lain..aku jadi diri aku sendiri..dulu aku berkawan tak pernah jadi diri aku..aku berkawan ikut rentak dorang coz aku takut dorang tak suka aku..kau jangan terkejut kalau aku bagi kau macam-macam hadiah coz itu adalah aku...itu tandanya aku sayang orang tu sangat-sangat dan kalau boleh taknak kehilangannya...dulu aku selalu buat macam tu dekat kawan-kawan aku..tapi bagi aku sekarang dah tak bermakna lepas aku tengok apa yang dorang post kat facebook..aku rasa aku dah bagitahu kau hari tu..hurmm sakit bila ingat balik...baru-baru ini aku gaduh dengan dia...aku tak sangka dia terasa dengan kata-kata aku...seriusly aku kata, ayat yang aku balas kat facebook tu bukan untuk dia....memang aku terkejut gila bila dia terasa dengan ayat aku tu...beberapa hari kitaorang tak bertegur..paling sedih malam new year pulak tu..bayangkan penghujung tahun 2012 berakhir dengan kesedihan..bukan itu yang kitaorang harapkan...tapi nak buat macam mana..semua ini salah aku juga...kata orang, kerana mulut badan binasa...terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlanjur kata???hurmm....tu lah..aku ni suka cakap tanpa berfikir...tu lah akibatnya...so pengajarannya, fikir dulu sebelum bercakap....(
semalam aku dapat berita yang mengejutkan daripada eff...CRISTIAN DANIAL BITUAN BLOCK AND DELETE AKU DARIPADA CONTACT FRIEND DIA....sumpah aku terkejut gila...bestfriend aku sendiri delete aku..OMG!!!terus hilang idea aku nak update blog..tapi nak buat macam mana...salah aku jugak..nak tahu apa yang aku cakap dengan dia???? :
[01/01/2013 1:34:00] Christ Danial: Happy New Year too Ama !
[01/01/2013 1:36:16] Christ Danial: Hows ur new year clbration? Im on my way bk home. Bt manila had bad traffic tonite
[01/01/2013 1:47:43] ama eyna Zakaria: hurmm
[01/01/2013 1:47:54] ama eyna Zakaria: nothing speccial
[01/01/2013 1:50:31] Christ Danial: Hows u guys?
[01/01/2013 1:50:59] ama eyna Zakaria: nothing change
[01/01/2013 1:52:09] ama eyna Zakaria: 8 call 10 msg from me
[01/01/2013 1:52:24] ama eyna Zakaria: just 2 msg she reply
[01/01/2013 1:52:41] ama eyna Zakaria: first dont call her
[01/01/2013 1:53:00] Christ Danial: 0uh. I havent talk to her. Idk if she on tonite or n0t. She said her fmily ll clbrate their parents annvsary on new year eve
[01/01/2013 1:53:29] ama eyna Zakaria: i know
[01/01/2013 1:53:51] ama eyna Zakaria: she alr tell me
[01/01/2013 1:54:56] Christ Danial: 0uh okay. What pic did u sent me
[01/01/2013 1:55:30] ama eyna Zakaria: pic?
[01/01/2013 1:56:25] Christ Danial: U didnt sent me any ph0to?
[01/01/2013 1:58:05] Christ Danial: :^)
[01/01/2013 1:58:44] ama eyna Zakaria: when i send?
[01/01/2013 2:01:15] ama eyna Zakaria: i didnt send anything
[01/01/2013 2:03:25] Christ Danial: Well thats weird. Haha.
[01/01/2013 2:04:09] ama eyna Zakaria: dan
[01/01/2013 2:04:19] ama eyna Zakaria: ;(
[01/01/2013 2:04:27] Christ Danial: Why?
[01/01/2013 2:04:32] ama eyna Zakaria: i miss her so much
[01/01/2013 2:04:40] ama eyna Zakaria: ;(
[01/01/2013 2:04:52] Christ Danial: N0t that cry face pls (wait) (wait)
[01/01/2013 2:05:38] ama eyna Zakaria: :(
[01/01/2013 2:05:55] ama eyna Zakaria: i cant
[01/01/2013 2:05:57] Christ Danial: Well tell her that. N0t me. And tell her u didnt mean what u said ystday.
[01/01/2013 2:06:17] ama eyna Zakaria: i alr tell her
[01/01/2013 2:06:24] Christ Danial: Maybe it takes time Ama
[01/01/2013 2:06:48] ama eyna Zakaria: ;(
[01/01/2013 2:07:31] ama eyna Zakaria: u know yesterday i didnt sleep
[01/01/2013 2:07:33] Christ Danial: Well I bet shes sad too
[01/01/2013 2:08:40] ama eyna Zakaria: i back 6.30pm n follow my manager till 10.00pm
[01/01/2013 2:09:16] Christ Danial: Fl0w where?
[01/01/2013 2:09:30] ama eyna Zakaria: i hope when i do that i can forgot bout yesterday but i cant
[01/01/2013 2:09:48] ama eyna Zakaria: follow her round2 bb
[01/01/2013 2:10:13] Christ Danial: Round2 bb?
[01/01/2013 2:10:36] ama eyna Zakaria: bukit bintang
[01/01/2013 2:12:50] ama eyna Zakaria: seriusly i miss her
[01/01/2013 2:13:27] ama eyna Zakaria: u know i just can see her pic in my phone
[01/01/2013 2:13:49] Christ Danial: Maybe she ll chat with u tmorow.
[01/01/2013 2:14:25] ama eyna Zakaria: i realy2 it ll happen
[01/01/2013 2:14:35] ama eyna Zakaria: #hope
[01/01/2013 2:14:47] Christ Danial: So after this, think twice bfore said smtg. Every tg has it effect
[01/01/2013 2:15:26] ama eyna Zakaria: hurmmm
[01/01/2013 2:16:42] Christ Danial: D0nt just hurmm
[01/01/2013 2:17:03] Christ Danial: U and ur hurmm |-(
[01/01/2013 2:17:44] ama eyna Zakaria: u want me say what?
[01/01/2013 2:18:05] Christ Danial: Anytg but hurmm
[01/01/2013 2:18:47] ama eyna Zakaria: idk
[01/01/2013 2:19:06] ama eyna Zakaria: im only think bout effy
[01/01/2013 2:22:02] Christ Danial: its bcause shes the only fren you had
[01/01/2013 2:23:23] ama eyna Zakaria: maybe
[01/01/2013 2:23:48] ama eyna Zakaria: she like my twins
[01/01/2013 2:24:21] Christ Danial: awww
[01/01/2013 2:25:01] Christ Danial: dont make me sad too pls. u two are my friends and i really had been affected too by what had happened
[01/01/2013 2:25:24] Christ Danial: i hope it didnt just end there. u guys have been through a lot together and it ll be wasted if u ended it in2012.
[01/01/2013 2:26:23] ama eyna Zakaria: idk
[01/01/2013 2:26:45] ama eyna Zakaria: all of this depands for her
[01/01/2013 2:27:03] ama eyna Zakaria: if she want to end
[01/01/2013 2:27:16] ama eyna Zakaria: i cant do anything
[01/01/2013 2:27:58] ama eyna Zakaria: u know 2 jan we plan to hangout
[01/01/2013 2:28:24] ama eyna Zakaria: but i know i holiday 3 jan today
[01/01/2013 2:28:51] ama eyna Zakaria: i ask my maneger to change that date
[01/01/2013 2:29:25] ama eyna Zakaria: she say can if i sing doraemon song
[01/01/2013 2:29:44] ama eyna Zakaria: infront all staff
[01/01/2013 2:30:19] ama eyna Zakaria: but know idk effy want continnotue that plan or
[01/01/2013 2:31:02] ama eyna Zakaria: now i just learn that song to sing tommorow
[01/01/2013 2:31:30] ama eyna Zakaria: n hope that date will change
[01/01/2013 2:31:48] Christ Danial: if not?
[01/01/2013 2:32:17] ama eyna Zakaria: if not what?
[01/01/2013 2:32:37] Christ Danial: if the manager didnt give u leave on 2nd jan ?
[01/01/2013 2:32:55] ama eyna Zakaria: just cry
[01/01/2013 2:33:18] ama eyna Zakaria: i think they give
[01/01/2013 2:33:47] ama eyna Zakaria: just they want to play2
[01/01/2013 2:34:24] ama eyna Zakaria: thats y she ask me to sing if i want change
[01/01/2013 2:36:02] Christ Danial: ouh okay then.
[01/01/2013 2:36:12] Christ Danial: Let just hope it happen.
[01/01/2013 2:36:30] ama eyna Zakaria: but im so shame to sing
[01/01/2013 2:36:38] ama eyna Zakaria: idk sing
[01/01/2013 2:36:48] Christ Danial: shy *
[01/01/2013 2:37:05] Christ Danial: its okay just sing, no one cares if u sang beautifully or not.
[01/01/2013 2:37:19] ama eyna Zakaria: ;(
[01/01/2013 2:37:38] ama eyna Zakaria: effy on fb but she do offline
[01/01/2013 2:37:53] Christ Danial: oh really?
[01/01/2013 2:37:54] ama eyna Zakaria: i see her like stats
[01/01/2013 2:38:26] ama eyna Zakaria: she didnt replly all i post to her
[01/01/2013 2:38:34] ama eyna Zakaria: n nsg me
[01/01/2013 2:38:41] ama eyna Zakaria: #msg
[01/01/2013 2:38:47] ama eyna Zakaria: ;(
[01/01/2013 2:39:00] Christ Danial: maybe she dont know what to say or reply to you
[01/01/2013 2:39:44] ama eyna Zakaria: i still wait she reply me
[01/01/2013 2:40:49] Christ Danial: hope is okay but dont let hope goes too high. dont expect soo much . cuz maybe you ll get nothing but hurt
[01/01/2013 2:41:07] Christ Danial: that what fey said to me
[01/01/2013 2:42:26] ama eyna Zakaria: hurmm
[01/01/2013 2:42:49] Christ Danial: that what she learnt from nady case
[01/01/2013 2:44:01] ama eyna Zakaria: i think i didnt get any change
[01/01/2013 2:44:58] Christ Danial: what u mean?
[01/01/2013 2:46:23] ama eyna Zakaria: i think she dont whant to forgive me...if yes not like before2 this
[01/01/2013 2:47:39] Christ Danial: I think she will Ama. But like I said things take time. you too said like that right? when I ask you to call dad/mom again but u said it takes time. so does this things. You need to learnt to wait and be patient. not everything goes the way you wanted it.
[01/01/2013 2:48:52] ama eyna Zakaria: i think i want delete my fb n skype
[01/01/2013 2:49:47] Christ Danial: youre giving up ? thats the only way you can contact her besides call and msg her phone and now youre throwing it away? no please
[01/01/2013 2:50:18] ama eyna Zakaria: i dont what can i do
[01/01/2013 2:50:32] ama eyna Zakaria: yup i alr giveup
[01/01/2013 2:51:19] ama eyna Zakaria: nothing can change
[01/01/2013 2:52:01] Christ Danial: nothing HAS CHANGED.
[01/01/2013 2:52:13] Christ Danial: it just experience some difficulties
[01/01/2013 2:52:31] Christ Danial: u said u miss her. u miss how u guys has always been. and now u re giving up ?
[01/01/2013 2:53:04] Christ Danial: what if she already wanted to forgive u? but then you didnt do anything more to attract her to give her forgivenesS? and she thinks you didnt want to get abck to before? so she just kept silent?
[01/01/2013 2:53:49] ama eyna Zakaria: i alr do anything
[01/01/2013 2:54:55] ama eyna Zakaria: now idk what i have to do
[01/01/2013 2:55:39] Christ Danial: just relax and wait for miracle okayy ?
[01/01/2013 2:55:44] ama eyna Zakaria: maybe just tgis way ll slve that prob
[01/01/2013 2:56:05] ama eyna Zakaria: how can i rax?\el
[01/01/2013 2:56:21] ama eyna Zakaria: #relex
[01/01/2013 2:57:13] Christ Danial: YOU DID NOT SOLVE THE PROBLEM. by delete skype and fb YOU ACTUALLY DID NOT DO ANYTHING TO SOLVE IT. YOU LET IT LIKE THAT.I know you cant relax but wait? its 2++am now and maybe shes tired. youre tired too right? get some sleep. dont let this affect the whole out of you.
[01/01/2013 2:57:55] ama eyna Zakaria: i cant sleep
[01/01/2013 2:58:29] Christ Danial: just do smthing relaxing.
[01/01/2013 2:58:54] ama eyna Zakaria: what?
[01/01/2013 2:59:09] ama eyna Zakaria: cry?
[01/01/2013 2:59:33] Christ Danial: if its makes u relax then CRY your heart off then
[01/01/2013 2:59:47] Christ Danial: shout it loud if you want5
[01/01/2013 3:00:07] ama eyna Zakaria: idk
[01/01/2013 3:06:46] Christ Danial: okay she is online. i just visit her tumblr. got updates.
[01/01/2013 3:07:13] ama eyna Zakaria: i know'
[01/01/2013 3:10:03] Christ Danial: okay shes online now i ll try to talk to her okay ama.
[01/01/2013 3:10:24] ama eyna Zakaria: i give u my no
[01/01/2013 3:10:42] ama eyna Zakaria: 017#######
[01/01/2013 3:10:51] ama eyna Zakaria: bye dan
[01/01/2013 3:10:57] ama eyna Zakaria: see u gain
[01/01/2013 3:11:03] Christ Danial: what do you mean ?
[01/01/2013 3:11:11] ama eyna Zakaria: thanks for everithing
[01/01/2013 3:11:31] ama eyna Zakaria: thanks a lot
[01/01/2013 3:11:46] Christ Danial: ouh okay I get it. Thanks. cuz making things more complicated.
[01/01/2013 3:11:56] Christ Danial: now I also lost a friend.
[01/01/2013 3:12:29] ama eyna Zakaria: u always my frewn
[01/01/2013 3:12:41] ama eyna Zakaria: u didnt lost me
[01/01/2013 3:12:42] Christ Danial: youre about to delete your skype right?
[01/01/2013 3:12:54] ama eyna Zakaria: yup
[01/01/2013 3:13:41] Christ Danial: what the fucking hell is wrong with you? you cannot delete your skype and leave me? you know what? I ll delete you first. okay bye . thanks for nothing. enjoy your 2013 dear my 2012 fren
[01/01/2013 3:13:45] Christ Danial: (angry)
[01/01/2013 3:14:18] ama eyna Zakaria: skype cannot delete'
[01/01/2013 3:14:33] ama eyna Zakaria: im just want find myself
[01/01/2013 3:14:59] ama eyna Zakaria: nots for a long
kalau nak diikutkan dari perbualan kitaorang, aku lah yang salah..memang salah aku..aku tak patut buat dia macam tu..aku bukan sengaja...aku buat macam tu sebab setiap kali aku chat dengan dia, mesti aku nangis sebab aku akan ingat kat eff dan makin rindu kat dia..aku just nak cari diri aku yang hilang..nak cuba memotivasikan diri aku..tapi aku tak sangka jadi macam ni..memang sedih sangat sebab dia bestfriend aku sama macam eff..aku kenal dia pun melalui eff...dia juga merangkap kepada DAD aku..dia panggil aku MOM masa aku tengah nasihatkan dia..dia cakap, cara aku cakap sama macam mom dia yang real..memang aku sayang dia sangat..aku dah anggap dia bestfriend aku..tapi aku sentap gila dengan ayat terakhir dia..*aku speaking tunggang-langgang sebab aku tak pandai speaking.*
enjoy your 2013 dear my 2012 frentapi aku tak salahkan dia...mungkin dia marah dan menyesal dengan tindakan aku..apa-apa pun aku berterima kasih kat dia kerana jadi kawan aku..aku ada sikit upacan untuk dia..aku tahu dia takkan faham..sebab aku tulis guna MALAY...dia cuma faham BI je...aku tak pasti dia baca blog aku ke tak..tapi dia ada alamat blog aku sebab aku ada bagi kat dia hari tu...
DAN..thanks sebab jadi kawan saya..u adalah kawan yang kedua terbaik pernah saya kenal selain effy...saya mintak maaf kalau saya sakitkan or kecikkan hati u...saya tiada niat pun..terima kasih sebab sudi jadi kawan 2012 saya dan kawan tiga jam pada 2013..terima kasih jadi DAD saya..terima kasih sebab banyak beri sokongan kat saya ketika sedih..terima kasih sebab sudi dengar luahan saya or masalah saya yang entah apa-apa..membazir waktu u saja mendengar celoteh saya..seriusly memang sukar untuk lupakan u..tapi saya rasa tak perlu lupakan pun...saya akan buat perkenalan kita sebagai memori yang terindah saya pada 2012..thanks a lot...apa yang terjadi bukan salah u..salah saya..saya harap u boleh maafkan saya...my lovely bestfriend :)
*the boy is my DAD = DANIAL
*the gilr is my TWIN = EFFY
#NOTE : sorry sebab letak gambar kauorang tanpa kebenaran...
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